Monday, July 04, 2005

I would like to see Tomorrow

Today is taking forever. It really feels like it is never going to end. It just drags on from moment to moment, nothing changing, just existing. I don't think tomorrow is going to make it. It called a while ago and said it was on it's way, but that was a long time ago. It should have been here by now. Well, the sun has set, all the loved ones are sleeping, and you're lying in bed, wishing you were asleep. You cant' sleep though. Not Today. Nothing can break the firm grip Reality has on you. Slow deep breath, you hold it, and exhale. Nothing, No relief from the tightness in your chest. The Doctor called them Panic attacks. Said you were just focusing on your mortality a bit too much of late. Making yourself crazy. He told you to not worry, you were fit as an ox. But you know better. You know, deep down inside what's wrong. It's not Tomorrow that creeps in this petty pace from day to day... There is no day to day. In a few hours the sun will rise and it will still be Today. The same people, saying the same things, doing the same things, thinking the same things, following the routine pattern, maintaining the status quo, barely. Barely alive, barely aware, barely awake. They're all dead inside. Blood flowing from habit and inertia. Limbs echoing movements begun in the past, mouths repeating words that used to mean something long ago. Now the words are hollow, disconnected from their meaning. Like verbal effigies they hang there interpreted at will.
Did time stop? Start skipping? One day repeating, never ending? No. You see it, it's still here, it's still showing all around you. It's cold fire slowly burning, fading, stripping all around you. The world is still turning, spinning off into the future. Now you see it's just the people stuck in place, in this Limbo. The dead are walking around in circles. Zombie victims of a voodoo, self inflicted, self prescribed, for the fear We're all injesting. To the fear we've all subscribed.
Ghosts haunt places, time echoes tragedy. Acceptance, is submission when things are not set Right. Truth is a power which must be brought to light. We can't ignore it, or outlast it. We all feel it, like a junky feels the need when the needles empty. Serve your masters, serve your interests, serve your basest human instincts and tomorrow will never come. Like a haunting you'll continue to float about Today. Or you can seize it, lift yourself up, do what it takes, do the right thing Today. To let the dead rest and the rest live justice must be served. The wrongs must be righted and all must get what they deserve.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

AP: And another one bites the dust.

Well, 5 hours ago AP released a story on US detainee abuse. Culled from 278 pages of hard won FOIA documents which lists multiple cases of documented abuse. Of course, the victims were not who you'd expect. They were all guards. AP-parently the oppressed guards are routinely terrorized and tortured by the ungrateful guests at Club Gitmo. Wow, I had no idea that groups of thugs were allowed to roam freely about their picturesque beaches being unruly and rude. One guard lost a tooth. For Shame. No seriously shame, dishonor, ah Hell, I'm gonna go up to "A Pox on thee!" on this one, to AP for printing this Disneyland brochure in an Orwellian World. They must be too busy rewriting old reports to have noticed the score in Gitmo is 68homicides to 1 tooth in favor of guards, whom they are spinning up to be Martyrs. Journalism didn't just hit a new low for Integrity, it proved the new low of intelligence in the field. Any American who has ever been arrested has seen far worse abuse perpetrated by County Correctional Officers on American Citizens than the Ap mentions here. Even Conservative regurgitator Heather Mac Donald paints a worse picture.

Well, no, most of those deaths were in military self-defense or were accidental,
and most occurred at the point of capture — razor close to the heat of battle,
if technically considered “in detention.” I don’t know where Friedman comes up
with his “over 100” number. As of March 16, the Army was reporting 68 detainee
deaths. Of those, 24 were confirmed or suspected criminal homicides, but again,
a full 15 of those homicides occurred at point of capture in Iraq and
Afghanistan. Do 24 criminal homicides out of the over 50,000 detainees taken as
of September 2004 represent a criminal abuse of power? How many enemy soldiers
died at the hands of their captors in previous wars? What proportion of al Qaeda
captives survive detention? Friedman doesn’t bother to ask.
Of course, she seems to believe that just a few feet "razor close" away from a firefight, soldiers are cuffing corpses. That murder is affirmative action "24 criminal homicides". That Al Qaeda was responsible for our Civil War, WWI and WWII etc" previous wars". And that "what Proportion" survival is a bonus. I guess on the flip side, she validates the "what I didn't do" defense strategy. You've heard it before, "Yeah, ?I f***ed her, but I make love to you!!" It's a carte blanche, I ain't John Wayne Gacy, excuse all. I wonder how proud she'd feel if Defense Attorneies around this Country started quoting her theory in their closing statements.
In a bit I'll post the story of my own experience in a County Detention center. See how it compares. If any one ever actually reads this, please feel free to respond with similiar stories, or post them at